I love a challenging day... and today was a good one. I have had kids take turns being sick for the last 3 weeks... while I've been juggling an increased work schedule... all kinds of fun. Well, today I finally hit the wall myself... actually I've been battling it and denying it's existence for the last 3 weeks... mothers don't have time for sickness... and what's the point unless your own mother is going to come and nurse you.
Meanwhile, it snowed about a foot overnight... so I finally hauled myself out of bed after lunch and decided I had better get it sorted before the weather warmed up and it wasn't fluffy and light anymore. It stupefies a few people as to why a non car owner would shovel their driveway... well... I'm an anomaly, everyone else in my world drives, including my bridal clients (and yes it's started already).
In the back of my mind I have been trying to work out some ish around moving to an acreage and starting a fibre farm and having way more space to work from... but if you've read this blog for a while then you are well aware that I have some trauma from my previous time spent in the forest... and yes I know that was extreme and not evenly remotely similar to what I'm wanting to do this spring... but still... when you are feeling sick and achy and dizzy you start to wonder if you should take on more than the current situation and whether you should really move out to the forest with two daughters... despite the crap I dealt with in the past there were some things that were not my job... anything to do with operating a chain saw, changing oil, or purchasing vehicles was not my domain... I stocked the pantry and foraged and took care of babies, laundry, and the chopping of fire wood and melting of snow... and it was hard.
But... I went outside and took almost two hours to shovel my driveway of doom today... and sweated out my fever... then I drew a hot bath... killed some brain cells on pinterest... and realized... hell ya... I can do anything!
Hard lesson... worth every moment!
Looks like I'm moving back to the forest after all.
xoL
January 21, 2012
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I so hope your forest includes internet! When I think I've hit a wall or I'm feeling uncertain, you're the person whose life experience I think of and it brings me back to the realization that, yes - you can do anything and knowing that helps me do just a little bit more ;)
ReplyDeleteYah!!!It may be hard but there's an innate part in all of us that syncs with life in the bush!
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