39 moons

Insomnia.

I've been eagerly anticipating the three year anniversary of our freedom... and tonight would mark the beginning of the three days that I did not sleep before finally getting off the mountain. It's amazing how the body stores things. I had insomnia last year as well... I look forward to the year where I forget the anniversary altogether. Oddly I can't recall the date of meeting the hex, despite the fact that we celebrated it... I guess the end is more important than the beginning.

2008

So many things have happened in the last few months but are too profound to put in to words. I am so filled with gratitude for all of the people and events that have crossed my path.


I reread my post from last year, and I really can't add anything to it... there is one major change in this last year... and the last few months in particular... my lovely friends have expressed that it is time for me to find a new man. It's quite ridiculous how much this has been expressed... friends I haven't seen in a decade... people I've met in the last year... even a few profound moments involving coyotes... my own daughters... RIDICULOUS. I know that it is coming from a place of love... but the pressure is enough to make my head and heart ache.

It is very challenging to find gratitude... hmm... well... I guess I'm grateful that I don't seem half as fucked up as I feel. I'm grateful that these lovely people think I'm worthy of the nicest bachelors they can think of. I'm grateful that I have a loving and accepting group of people surrounding me and my daughters.

2005

With all my heart I send out a wish to the good faeries,

May all beings know peace and love in their lifetimes.

xoL