Giving myself a gift.

I gave myself an incredible gift this year for my birthday.

Trust.

Let me explain... I have some trust issues... which is reasonable considering my past experiences, however, they are not helping me out in the present. I have spent the last few years longing to regain my trust... in others and myself. I have tried reasoning with myself. I have tried putting myself in new situations. I have worked really hard to be aware of where my issues are only in my head and let new experiences help me tear down my barriers.

Now I have a well spring of trust. It taps into a deep ocean filled with trust. Whenever I feel my ego start to belittle or second guess I drop the bucket and pull up a fresh batch. Ultimately, this is about trusting myself. Trusting my intuition. Trusting my abilities. Trusting that I will do the right thing. Trusting my feelings. Trusting that good things are coming my way, and that it's ok to have faith in that.

It's an amazing gift... and it takes a lot of practice... but I trust that it will get easier.

xoL